Care packages, oh no!

So far this first month of the deployment is going by way faster then what I thought. We are in the last week of the month and I still feel like he left yesterday. It feels so weird not having him in the house but yet I am so used to it too so I am doing perfectly fine until I remember that he isn't coming home for quite some time. I have been trying to stay busy and its been working. School is kicking my butt with the work load, I have wonderful friends here to hang out with, shop, talk and eat with on a daily basis, dogs to take care of and cuddle with and a wonderful husband to email and plan things for :]

Which brings me to the care packages! I feel so horrible lol. That first deployment I had a care package off within 2 weeks of him leaving and with this one I had one semi ready since he left but I kept on putting off the ship off date. Horrible me! But it is officially sent off and on its way to him finally :] And it is full of things he actually needed or forgot, like toilet paper, more white socks, replacement tooth brush etc. So I kind of overdone it with this second one already :D I haven't gotten anything for it yet but MAN did I decorate it! I hope he loves it. I know it will at least make him laugh lol. But I will be shopping for things to put in it this week and it will be sent off on Friday most likely. (hoping for Friday haha).

Now onto baby update! She is doing fantastic in there having a ball apparently. Our little Rosie is a night owl (very active at night but I can still get to sleep through her kicking and rolling), loves to explore (kicks my cervix, OUCH!) and is making mommy grow so much (a.k.a stretch marks on the girls.... *sad face*) Despite a crappy anatomy scan Rosie and I are doing fantastic here at home despite the occasional morning sickness moment still lol, yes I am 20 weeks along and I still have it, its loads of fun haha. Now plans for the rest of the month of January. I am babysitting and doing homework and shopping this week. And this weekend I have the ike frg craft AND a baby shower to go to. I am excited :] And that is pretty much it for this month. I already have some wonderful plans for February and I can't wait! It would be neat if I can wake up and it be March or April already, but then again I want to sit back, relax and enjoy this pregnancy. I am just so excited to meet her face to face finally and then have her daddy come home! I am really impatient but thats ok. I know every new mother is :D Ok that is it for tonight! I will be back on soon.

Kicks, baby bumps, and life :]

Its been awhile since I posted so here it goes! Lately I have been super busy so I am pretty excited to update this finally with everything that has been going on. I had another 3d/4d ultrasound and she was perfectly perfect :] She had some meat on her bones this time so it wasn't as creepy. There was an OB appointment after that too that was a disappointment and that is all I am going to say on that subject. On some good news our baby girl Roselyn is kicking the shit out of me! And I can see my tummy bulge out now from her! Super scary when you think about how tiny she is and how much strength she already has but that is good that she is strong :D I am very proud of her accomplishments already. I got one of the first tummy bulging kicks on video so I can send to daddy. I know he will love it as I do. I wish he was here to experience it with me of course but videos are the next best thing in the military life. My baby bump is growing faster then I can wrap my head around too. I know I am supposed to be a tad bigger by now but I am happy by her growth. I can't wait for the anatomy scan on Tuesday so I can see her beautiful face again! Ok well I need to stop blogging and get to my homework! EECK! lol Later :D

"D" Day

Went a little easier then I thought. Yesterday morning was a bit rushed so it went by fast. I thought I was going to be in hysterics watching the ship actually leave port but I wasn't. I cried on the phone with him one last time before they pulled off. I cut the conversation short because the tears were running down my face and I didn't want the last conversation he had with me for a while was be bawling my eyes out. I wanted it to be happy, and filled with things we are going to do when he gets back.

So almost 10 minutes after I got off the phone, the tug boats came, and pushed the ship off. The ship went sideways a bit then pulled forward. As soon as the tug boats let go that ship took off and booked it out of there as soon as it could. It was a lot faster then last time. It surprised me a bit. But made me feel better that they were getting to where they were going as soon as they could and so they can get back into the groove of things and get this deployment over with.

Angie and I went to three different places to take some pictures as it was leaving. It was cold because of the biting wind. So I got out of the vehicle once to take two pics and a video of them moving, and got back inside the warmth of the car as soon as I could. That is all we need. Me the preggo to get sick as soon as he leaves.

Here is my favorite picture I took of the ship. I hate that ship yes, but I love seeing that floating piece of metal home and hooked to the pier. It was really saddening to see it leave with my sailor, my husband on that ship. It was like seeing my life just float away even though I know I have my own life here and a lot to look forward to. Like this little one in my tummy. 


She has been kicking me all last night, and so far this morning. And she even woke me up early this morning because she was on my bladder or something. First time this pregnancy that I had to get up out of bed because I had to pee lol. Proof that she is growing and getting big despite everything going on, on the outside. I am officially 17 weeks today, just three more weeks and I will be halfway done with this pregnancy and that kind of scared me a little. So I have decided that this week is going to be full of cleaning, doctor's appointments, planning, and doing random things to pass the time. Like this blog :] This has so far been helping me out a lot with organizing my thoughts. So I will keep this up :]

Deployment + Pregnancy

To start off, this second deployment came way sooner then I thought. I knew the date, knew he was deploying, but somehow my mind could not wrap around the fact that he was leaving again so soon. Come on! He just got back from one this past summer! So since my mind didn't allow me to fully understand that yes, he was leaving, it made it all the harder on me to say goodbye. Last deployment I cried the day I dropped him off, and only for a few minutes while I was driving home from the base. But with this one, I guess it fully hit me a week ago that I had to say goodbye yet again to the love of my life and the father of my daughter. Hence I started crying and has been crying on and off since that realization. And dropping him off this morning was probably the hardest thing I had to do in my life so far. I feel so happy and elated that we are bringing a little girl into this world, but with him gone it feels like its more me bringing her into the world and introducing 'daddy' later. So I feel horrible that this deployment and the navy is taking this wonderful experience from him to share. Yes he will get belly pictures, baby updates and pictures, video of the labor and thousands of pictures of the baby when she is outside of my womb. But he won't be able to get the chance to watch me grow with her, see how much she has grown in ultrasounds, doctor's appointments, attend labor classes with me, coach me through labor, and the one that hits me the hardest is he won't be able to bond with this little miracle we created until he comes home. Yes we knew he was deploying before we got pregnant with her, but we also did not know we would get lucky so soon! Seriously, one month BEFORE we start clomid and IUI's? God must have a plan for us and just loves pushing us to our limits because this is a doozy of a journey that both Vance and I have to travel to bring her to life and give her a good one. Preparing for her and keeping her daddy in the loop will hopefully make this deployment go by in a flash. I know this is tough on both of us, but we have to be strong to make a happy life for her. So here is to the first blog entry of many. Later!